這是2005年9月12日的我

碰巧找到了他

那天晚上 我見了一個很久不見的 曾經很相熟的中學同學



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Suddenly felt that time really passing fast, unbearably. If our high school life is like a mould for well-behaved students to fit in, why should our mindset be so different? Some of us might be professional and very knowledgeable, that I never dreamt of being so and ever wanted to achieve. It’s wired to query about others’ ultimate goal and their values, coz I think everyone should already have a set of rules preset by their family, surroundings, friends, love and himself/ herself, no one should pre-empt others.

I might call myself not very aggressive towards my goal, not even steps by steps, people criticized about my talent and determination. In fact I don’t have to explain everything to you, I just always told you that I have no money to complete (that’s true). Heavy burden.

I hate people tell me to save my money, that’s unrealistic. Please if you are really my friend, don’t try to tell me this bull shit again. I know what I am doing and, yes, a trip to Korea or Taiwan that’s what I can afford. I am not complaining, but please be considerate and don’t trying to reach my bottom line.

Ok, back to my high school life. People changed a lot, or only exaggerating their mode of thinking ever then. My horoscope and sense made me observing people, I can smell them. I do believe high school can develop the closest and purest friendship, however time will ruin and flush some very essential elements of this kind of relationship. You know what I mean, right. If the real thing is the real thing, the remaining is useless. I am sorry, but should all of us have the same feeling, how miserable.

OK, let’s have a concrete example. I joined a focus group of Ming Pao Weekly (MPW), which I am a almost 20 years reader of it. For the past 20 years, their material size is rather hugh and not very portable. Copying from Cosmopolitan, smaller size of Ming Pao Weekly will be published and released since September, 2005. The focus group’s aim is to get feedbacks from their readers and make further improvements, while some of them are from non-readers of Ming Pao Weekly. Ming Pao Weekly related to my high school life as the connection and sentiments to me is also very high; it is full of information and entertainments. In the focus group, 3 of us are readers of MPW and 4 of us are not, with 3 marketing staffs and 4 editors. We tried to build a circle of trust. Pretending not to harm each others and being very carefree, we still have strong stand points. It’s interesting to have different comments and suggestions so to make the world more perfect. Basically we were peacefully discussing the topics about MPW, suddenly all of us had aware there is someone has totally different values among us, which we will call it strange values afterwards. But the conversation has to be continued. What will I do? What will you do?

Even though finally our goal was the same (to end the conversation, to give suggestions, to reflect personal feelings, to gain the incentive or to go to the toilet), we still not yet get MARRIAGE. I am still in checkpoint one only.

簡單一句，如果睇明週長大，一定會記起十多年前麥o麥在小明週出世。一起長大十多年, 不見了幾年, 再在明週出現, 變了幾米, 還有什麼好說。麥o麥只是生活中的一塊碎石罷了。


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先不說文法

很奇怪的

與今天上課的一個情節 十分地相似

像兩年多前的我看兩年多後的我

先知一樣

終你會懷疑誰孕育了誰





有一些想法似乎在某些基層永遠強制別人的自由

不知有多少人明白(或 你想關心)

和而不同是我很喜歡的理念



你沒有要別人喜歡你
可是你可以自由喜歡別人
已是一個莫大的自由